The year 2020 has been a whirl wind. A place that none of us thought we would ever be in; a year that made you or broke you. In ways I feel the chaos to be a blessing because it forced me to make choices I felt I should have taken in the first place. In other ways, it has broken me; a sense of anxiousness, uncertainty and financial stress. I am blessed though to have faith in a God who cares and loves me. My faith is my comfort, it is my joy when I don’t feel happy. I am learning more about who God made me….that despite what everyone else says about me, I’m not broken, I’m different (and I like that).
My whole life I have been a pain to deal with. I am stubborn, hot headed, relentless and a pusher. I will push you to see things my way, I will push to get my way, I will push when I know I or anyone else is capable of more. Nothing frustrates me more than when people give me excuses and whine. Sure, we all do it, but does it stop you from achieving your goals? Or do you get over yourself and realize we aren’t put on this earth for hippy vibes, peace, love and comfort. If you want it bad enough, you’ll work for it. You’ll show up when it hurts, you’ll show up when you’re tired, you’ll show up even if you are alone (esp if you are alone). You block out negativity, you work in silence because you are working for YOUR goals, you don’t need validation from others. There are a select handful of people that I long to get approval from, but I don’t go begging for it….I work my tushy off until they think I deserve it. I don’t tell them what I am doing, I don’t look for a pat on the back…..when I start to really do the work (at home, work, in my walk with God, in the gym) the right people will notice, and that is all I need.
Don’t work for the IG likes, the followers, the people who have always told you you’re not good enough. Get better for you, for your kids, for the people that see your potential and are just waiting for you to do something about it.
Every day; Show Up. Shut Up. Do Work.